Anyway, I was thinking last night when I should have been sleeping...Timing wise we'll probably have our Ethiopian addition by this time next year. That means that she's most likely in utero right now. Which means that there's a mother in Ethiopia that is going to have a horrible year. She's going to carry this child and birth her all the while loving her deeply. Then she's going to get sick, probably with some disease that is completely preventable, then she will pass away leaiving her precious baby.
I so often think of how excited I am that we're adding to our family and how wonderful it's going to be. But all day I've been thinking and praying for my baby's mama. That the Lord will be real to her as she deals with all the hardships that are coming. I can't imagine what it would be like, not being able to watch my children grow up, not even having the peace of mind knowing that my babies would be taken care of by my family, but giving my child to strangers, hoping for a better future for her. What a brave lady, my baby's mama is.
I'm also praying that this problem of people dying of curable diseases would decrease. It's just plain stupid that people around the world are dying when they don't have to. More on that tangent later. I'm reading Red Letters by Tom Davis for the second time it's got me thinking.....
Ugh, I got all choked up reading this. What an incredible mix of emotions you're dealing with. And so is she. There are no words.
ReplyDeleteYes. . .this is a whole series of emotions isn't it? I don't even know how to explain to non-adoptive parents the vast array of emotions I have tied up in this one woman.
ReplyDeleteI can't wait to hear your "red letter" thoughts! Love that book!
Brandi
Amber and I are the same way ... every morning we pray for our adoption, our child, our birth mother and birth family and t's an unreal swing of emotions...
ReplyDeleteI know excactly what you are talking about. I received the referral for my 3.5 yo son 2 days before mother's day. While I was overjoyed to be adding to my family, Mother's day was so very heavy. (all 3 of my children are adopted, and we are waiting for court for 2 more). I cried all day that day, thinking about the women who gave birth our children. I wondered at the fact that 3 times I got to be the mom who loves them so much and gets to take care of our children, and 3 times someone else had to be the mother who loved them so much they had to let them go.
ReplyDeletepraying for your child and that every orphan gets a family,
Traci
Wow...powerful. There aren't really any words...
ReplyDelete-Bethany